Thursday, September 9th, 2010 by Barefoot Mommies 4 Comments »
I have been asked by a couple of people now why we decided to have a baby, and what my reaction was. I have been putting it off thinking no one really wants to know. When Hayneedle asked me if I would be a guest baby blogger and tell my story, I thought hmmm I guess it is time to let everyone know how it happened.
After having a hard time getting pregnant with Logan and then all the complacations I went through to get him here. My husband and I thought no more babies for at least three years. Well as we all can say sometimes there are other plans for us!
I went in for a yearly women examine, where you ask all kinds of questions. Normally I just laugh at everyone until they asked if there was anyway I could be pregnant. I looked at the nurse and said no, I am on the pill. She said well it not 100% you know and if you think there is little chance you can be, please just take a test. I honestly took the test to please her, I gave her the test and wanted for her to come into the room. Imagine my shock when she tells me I am pregnant. I honestly thought it was some type of joke and said “come on thats not funny!” She said no joke come with me and we will try to see when your due. The walk to the office seemed eight miles long. The whole time I am crying not knowing what to do. I would never get rid of this baby, but man was this wrong timing! As I sat in the office listening to everything they where saying, the tears kept coming. At this point the nurse said to me well I am sure we can give you the pill to make it all go away if that’s what you want. It was that moment that I knew no matter what this baby would be loved and cared for. That this baby will know that even if it was not the right moment for her parents it didn’t matter. I looked at the nurse and said this baby will be a joy in our lives. I thanked them and went home.
On the drive home I said a prayer out loud asking for help to tell my husband. I pulled into the drive and was happy to see that our son was asleep. I walked in with tears in my eyes and found my husband I just said honey there is something i need to tell you. He looked at me and said your pregnant right. I was shock how did he know? I said yes, when he answer that explains why your always tried and cry a lot. He then went on to say it is ok we will get through this somehow.
I could not believe that he was so ok with itl. I mean didn’t we make a plan. Our son would only be 28 months when we have this baby. How can this be so easy for him? As I sat there still in shock my little boy woke up hopped on my lap and said love you. It was there I knew this is why my husband is fine with it. Look at how lucky we are with having a healthy boy. So yes we where not prepared and yes there are so many things we will have to get before this baby, but in the end we knew it would all be for the best.
Many thoughts go through your head when you find out your pregnant, but the one thought that never goes away is how am I to care for that little one. But somehow we are able to. Think of all the other children in the world who are born to parents who do not want them. Knowing that my two kids will never have to go through that makes all the morning (all day) sickness so worth it. All teh food cravings you have, and of course the consting having to use the bathroom! We all know what we are getting into when we have a baby, and this time was no different for me. I will say it is a lot less scary, but I am also healthy, and making better choices to keep this baby in me longer. I am so excited to share my jounrey to motherhood with you guys. For the next three weeks I will be posting different blogs