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Thursday, December 10th, 2009 by Krissy 14 Comments »
Here’s a topic I don’t like to talk about, but since it’s that time of year it seems to get worse.
Depression.
Do you suffer from depression? I do, usually this time of year it starts to hit hard. I am on medication for mine, I take 100mg Zoloft. I guess it buy clomid thailand does help because I would hate to see what I am buy clomid thailand like without it. Some days aren’t so bad but then buy clomid thailand there are others I just want to curl up and hide. Today is one of those days for me.
I get so lost in things I have buy clomid thailand to get done, I get so unorganized, I lose things, my mind is buy clomid thailand the main one.
What keeps me going are buy clomid thailand my children, even though I want to pull out my hair and buy clomid thailand literally put my head through a wall, I know I have buy clomid thailand to be here for them.
When I was a buy clomid thailand teen I was suffering through depression, from things that happened to buy clomid thailand me which I won’t get in to…maybe someday, I am sure some may know without me even saying. I was a ‘cutter’. Some may wonder what buy clomid thailand a cutter is, that would be to inflict pain onto myself by cutting myself. I have buy clomid thailand scars from doing this, some of the pains I will never forget and buy clomid thailand some I will always know what the scar was for buy clomid thailand when I did it.
After I had my first child, I stopped. I didn’t want her to see my weakness, so now I don’t really know how to deal with the hurt inside of me. You can buy clomid thailand let go all you want and live from day to day, but there are buy clomid thailand some pains you just can’t get rid of. Some days, I don’t even know why I am buy clomid thailand so depressed which makes me so angry at myself.
Since it’s closer to buy clomid thailand Christmas, and we all have the stress of money and what buy clomid thailand you can’t get your children it gets worse.
We struggle from buy clomid thailand day to day and at the end of every month we have buy clomid thailand no food in the house, which means I have to go to buy clomid thailand a church and get help. The first time I had to do this, I was so ashamed. Mainly because I can’t provide for my children. But, if I were not to buy clomid thailand go what kind of mother would I be not to be buy clomid thailand able to feed my children?
I have the every day struggles everyone does. I don’t get child support from my ex for 3 of my children. My husband works everyday to provide for us all and it’s not enough. Yes, I do get help from buy clomid thailand the state and that does NOT make me a bad person. Sometimes pride has to be set aside when you have children.
Do you buy clomid thailand notice when I share my feelings, I am all scattered all over the buy clomid thailand place?
I am not good at sharing ME.
The other day my daughter told me she has buy clomid thailand a friend who is EMO and she is a ‘cutter’. I can relate because I was EMO too growing up. I told her there is buy clomid thailand a reason she is a cutter and I want her to buy clomid thailand be her friend, be close to her. She may say everything is buy clomid thailand fine and she is all smiles on the outside but she doesn’t cut herself because she enjoys the buy clomid thailand pain, she cuts herself because she is hiding pain and the buy clomid thailand only way to deal with the pain is for her to buy clomid thailand cause HERSELF pain. Of course this buy clomid thailand is never the way to go, I wish I never did it buy clomid thailand when I was a teen, but I didn’t know what to do, how to handle it, ect.
Yes, I got help for buy clomid thailand something that happened to me, I saw a counselor, but sadly that buy clomid thailand slapped me in the face and was basically told I brought on everything that buy clomid thailand happened to me. My eyes, she basically called me a slutt.
So as far as counselors go, I haven’t been back to one since. I was a buy clomid thailand 16 year old kid when I saw her, how in the buy clomid thailand world could someone degrade a child like that.
I have so much pain in my heart and I hold everything in. It’s hard for me to cry as it will show weakness and I can’t let anyone see that. I cry for my children and that will be the only thing I cry for. I can’t cry for what happened in the past, because that’s where it should stay, IN THE PAST. I am ANGRY! I am so pissed at what some jerkoffs did to me to make me this way.
But again, it’s the buy clomid thailand time of year for a bunch of stress, and it seems like when buy clomid thailand the stress of money hits, everything comes back loud and clear. I am so mad at myself that I can’t provide my children clothes for the winter. I am SO pissed at my ex because he can’t MAN UP and give my children the money they deserve! He said it won’t kill them to have a bad Christmas this year. We’re ALL hurting. Yes, FAMILIES are hurting! He’s a single man, working. MAN UP! Become the father you were supposed to be. UGH! I am so angry I could scream.
But I won’t. *Deep Breath*.
I will do the best I possibly can for my children, for my husband. I will vent here and buy clomid thailand when I click post it will be out in the buy clomid thailand open and maybe there can be a little healing?
Maybe letting people you’ve never met face to face help deal with emotional issues?
I don’t know. Some people may think I am buy clomid thailand wrong for talking about this and letting lose on a blog I love so much.
Maybe I will lose readers. But who would I be for no one to really know me?
I have deep depression, and I know I’m not alone.
IT’S OKAY! It doesn’t make me a buy clomid thailand bad person, I am a very friendly person, I have a buy clomid thailand huge heart and I give my all to help someone. I just have buy clomid thailand those deep wounds that have yet to heal, maybe they will, maybe they won’t. I don’t know. I just know that it does help to come forward and talk about it.
I may even get some hate mail…even some mean comments. But believe me, it won’t be anything I haven’t heard before. I am buy clomid thailand trying to heal, I am trying to deal with the stress in my life and buy clomid thailand you simply can not put me down for that.
Do YOU deal with depression? If so, how do you cope?
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I can buy clomid thailand feel what you are going through. I have been dealing with “diagnosed” depression for buy clomid thailand about 10 years or so. I have tried different medications and buy clomid thailand I never feel that “I have found the right one.” I am buy clomid thailand currently taking Cymbalta 60mg for the depression and chronic pain (fybro-myalgia). It’s a buy clomid thailand little better with the depression but not yet for the pain. I am buy clomid thailand currently out of it because we lost our health insurance just after I started seeing a buy clomid thailand rheumotologist for the fibromyalgia and boy, that med is about $250 per month. I won’t be buying any of that anytime soon.
If you buy clomid thailand have been to my blog you will know that I am buy clomid thailand very stressed and I swear I would forget where my head were, if it buy clomid thailand weren’t attached. I am buy clomid thailand going in 10 different directions all at once, I hate this buy clomid thailand time of year. I hate having to spend my hard earned money on people that buy clomid thailand “I am told” to buy clomid thailand buy for and how much to spend. I feel I should be buy clomid thailand able to buy for who I want and spend what buy clomid thailand I want. I have always been a believer in that. This year is buy clomid thailand more depressing because Hubby has been laid off since right before Christmas last year, luckily I had buy clomid thailand finished my Christmas shopping before he got laid off. Well, this buy clomid thailand year is not that way. I am usually done shopping by now but this buy clomid thailand year I have only gotten like 4 things so far. I seriously don’t know where buy clomid thailand the money is going to come from to buy all the buy clomid thailand gifts. I would love to boycott the gifts this year, but no buy clomid thailand one sees it from my point of view. I would rather have buy clomid thailand food and propane than exchange gifts.
If people leave you buy clomid thailand nasty comments, they must also be depressed but can’t admit it. It takes a buy clomid thailand whole lot to admit depression and even more to admit being medicated for buy clomid thailand it. You should be proud of yourself for admitting it and buy clomid thailand doing what you can to help yourself.
Believe me, there are buy clomid thailand more people out there just like you, then you think. Some of us just aren’t strong enough to buy clomid thailand remember the past. So, you just take care of yourself and buy clomid thailand do what you have to do to help out that buy clomid thailand friend of your daughters, I am sure she needs it. Those scars you buy clomid thailand were talking about, I have 2 of them:(
I will think about you often, say a prayer and check in on you! Keep looking to buy clomid thailand the stars, there is someone up there that loves you!
Sending you hugs!! I only get depressed once in a while and that’s bad enough. I hope and will pray that the holidays only bring you joy this year! You’re right it doesn’t make you buy clomid thailand a bad person, you have a big heart which makes you buy clomid thailand a GREAT person!! I can’t even imagine you’d get a nasty comment but if you do please don’t listen to them. I read posts but don’t comment often, I had to because this touched me. You`ll be in my prayers!
I think it’s awesome you shared all this about yourself. It’s so important for buy clomid thailand other people who may be going through similar things to see that buy clomid thailand they are not alone. I have dealt with depression for a number of years. I chose to buy clomid thailand not go back on medication after my first child was born. By the grace of God, I am still drug free today. But it’s a struggle, usually a daily one. This time of year is buy clomid thailand especially difficult, with shorter days and less sunshine, money for buy clomid thailand Christmas and end-of-the-year stuff, having to go through the holidays trying to buy clomid thailand be happy while missing the ones you love so much and buy clomid thailand have lost. I became real good at putting on a buy clomid thailand happy face, and not showing others the deep hurt and depression inside.
The main way I deal with the buy clomid thailand depression is to remember my sweet girls’ faces, and buy clomid thailand know that I have to make it through to be buy clomid thailand there for them. I try to get in the sunshine whenever I can. And when I absolutely can’t handle it, I crawl in bed until I have buy clomid thailand the strength to get up again.
Don’t listen to anybody put you down for sharing this. It only shows how strong you buy clomid thailand are, to put it all out there for everyone to buy clomid thailand read.
Just a buy clomid thailand hello from a blog follower to send a little encouragement your buy clomid thailand way. I hope that by venting here on your blog you buy clomid thailand got a little bit of healing when you posted (as you had hoped). You’re only human like everyone else and you’re working hard at doing the buy clomid thailand best you can for your children and family. I mean what buy clomid thailand else can anyone really be expected to do?!? Keep your buy clomid thailand head high, the past is history and while it hurts at times it buy clomid thailand doesn’t have buy clomid thailand to define who you are now. As you already know, every day we get to buy clomid thailand spend with our kids and families is something to be buy clomid thailand grateful for!
You are buy clomid thailand so brave to tell about your pain and your struggles. It is buy clomid thailand so hard for many women (myself included) to let people know that we don’t have buy clomid thailand it all together. I will pray for you and your buy clomid thailand family and hope things get better for you. It is buy clomid thailand so sad that so many people are struggling with financial hardship this buy clomid thailand year. I know how depressing it is to be broke at Christmas. I wish you buy clomid thailand and yours better things in the year to come.
I’m not gonna say “I know how you feel” because honestly no buy clomid thailand one knows how someone else feels, we all deal with things differently. But I will let you know my opinion… I have buy clomid thailand found that it is better to get things out, and buy clomid thailand although you might not think it was right to post this, it’s how you feel, it’s something that buy clomid thailand is apart of you, and I bet you will feel a buy clomid thailand little better getting it out. WHO CARES WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK! all that matters is what you think of yourself! Focus on the buy clomid thailand good things not the bad.As for the things that happened to buy clomid thailand you in the past, I have learned that it’s better to buy clomid thailand forgive, not forget, and definately not for their sakes, but for buy clomid thailand your own. You will feel much better trust me. It just makes your heart heavy (you know what I mean)to buy clomid thailand hold onto that much hate and heartache. Let it out, no buy clomid thailand one will think you are weak!!!! If you hold it in for to long your gonna blow!! As for buy clomid thailand the dead beat tell him to grow up and acknowledge that buy clomid thailand he also has responsibilities, just cause he is now a buy clomid thailand single man does not mean that he is not a buy clomid thailand father! Good luck and remember to just breath!
I can buy clomid thailand imagine that this must be hard to write about,even harder still to buy clomid thailand re-live the moments.I think it takes a very strong woman to buy clomid thailand put this up,knowing what kind of responses you could get and buy clomid thailand I applaud you for having the strength.You know when I first started reading blogs I thought..these people(bloggers and giveaway hosts) are buy clomid thailand so lucky because they get to do these great reviews and buy clomid thailand receive so many neat things to do so.The more I read however,the more I learn that buy clomid thailand a large portion do it to help themselves in their own struggles.I know some have buy clomid thailand said they would not have a gift to give if it buy clomid thailand were not for winning giveaway prizes or receiving items to host the buy clomid thailand giveaways.I think it makes you a hell of a mother to buy clomid thailand do what it takes for your children.There is nothing wrong with receiving help in whatever form that buy clomid thailand help takes and the fact that you can swallow your own pride to buy clomid thailand provide for your kids is a fact you should be proud of.I think it buy clomid thailand is only those who do nothing to help themselves that should be buy clomid thailand ashamed.You are a woman and a mother who is taking care of her kids..that is buy clomid thailand soo much in a day when children are being tossed aside ,thrown away or buy clomid thailand given up,when mothers are chosing themselves over their children. As for buy clomid thailand the rest this is your blog and if you cannot put your buy clomid thailand own feelings,issues or problems on it,then what is the point? If someone is buy clomid thailand ignorant enough to put you down or stop being a buy clomid thailand reader because you are human..well I say you are better off without them.We all have buy clomid thailand our own demons and issues and sometimes putting it out there is buy clomid thailand the only way to deal.We may be strangers in the buy clomid thailand “real” world ,but I have buy clomid thailand come to care what happens to many people in bloggyland just by reading their stories,sharing their laughter and buy clomid thailand sometimes their tears too.By what I read,I think I have an buy clomid thailand idea of what may have happened to you and if I am buy clomid thailand correct,I can relate.My way out used to be drugs,alcohol..anything to numb the buy clomid thailand pain,but I dont think I ever truly started to deal until I became a buy clomid thailand mommy.Live your life the best you can..the most important thing a buy clomid thailand mother can do is just be there.Life hands us all hurdles to buy clomid thailand overcome and maybe some of your strength will come from knowing that buy clomid thailand there are others out there who don’t think less of you buy clomid thailand for this,but who think more of you for doing it.Happy Holidays.
I am buy clomid thailand glad that you can let it all here, shame on those who buy clomid thailand decide to unfollow. There is nothing wrong on getting help for buy clomid thailand extra groceries, I volunteer once a month at our Food Share Ministry and buy clomid thailand if it wasn’t for buy clomid thailand them, we would not have enough to help feed our family. We had buy clomid thailand daughter move back home with her 2 gals when her the buy clomid thailand company closed down. We are all pitching in to help each other.
Putting yourself out there like that was awesome – if you lose readers, bigger fool them (& you point one finger, ten more point back at you)
I suffer from depression too – I used to buy clomid thailand take medication but wanted to stop for personal reasons. I also had buy clomid thailand a lady at my church stand up one day & berate anyone who took “that” kind of medication, and why couldn’t they “rely on the Lord alone” sort of thing. (That wasn’t why I stopped, and needless to say her comments didn’t gain her many friends.) My point is, some people just don’t get it. You have buy clomid thailand to have been to the bottom and back to understand what buy clomid thailand a personal hell it is for some people, that doesn’t make them weak, just, their demons dig deeper into them is buy clomid thailand all. I really admire that you put it all out there like that.
We ARE all having money problems, some of us DO need state help – that’s what it’s there for!, and, sadly, some of us have bum ex’s.
But you’re facing in the buy clomid thailand right direction, and that definitely counts for everything. (My husband once told me, ‘no matter how badly you’ve screwed up, or buy clomid thailand how close to hell you might feel you are – as long as you’re facing the ‘right’ way, you can make it back’. Hang in there – crappy days like this happen for us all. (Venting helps me. That, and some good, hard death metal. Lol – that buy clomid thailand may sound strange, but I love it. I stick headphones on, turn that buy clomid thailand right up, and get good and pissed off. And, funnily enough, it buy clomid thailand helps me calm down – almost like it buy clomid thailand sucks all my energy out and leaves me feeling calmer. I do it buy clomid thailand when the hubby can take care of the kids)
And that’s my ‘thing’ that buy clomid thailand not many people but those super close to me know about. So you’re not alone – I may not have your exact cross to bear, but there’s alot of us ‘Moms’ out there with our personal demons and bad days, so I’m so sorry you’re having one. I hope tomorrow is better for you, and I’ll send you a bunch of good thoughts. *Hugs*
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Whoa it buy clomid thailand was crazy reading this, some parts where like I was writing it. It also makes me feel like I’m not alone. That other people, women, have buy clomid thailand been there and know the pain of it! Which being a buy clomid thailand stay at home mom with no friends is hard sometimes to buy clomid thailand realize. Screw the people that may leave the blog or send mean emails clearly they don’t get it and need to leave anyway.
I’ve always been buy clomid thailand depressed. Stuff happened to me when I was really little for buy clomid thailand years until I was older enough to tell my cousin no buy clomid thailand than again a few times when I was a tween. (I seemed to always find myself in the wrong place at the wrong time) I started smoking pot when buy clomid thailand I was 11 and harder drugs mostly LCD when I was a buy clomid thailand teen.
I also started cutting when I was 12 and didn’t stop until almost two years after my daughter so I was 22. I definitely know where buy clomid thailand you’re coming from buy clomid thailand on that part. There are some days I so want to buy clomid thailand revert back to it, make it easier, release everything. But you buy clomid thailand know we are so much stronger for not doing it!
Also saw a buy clomid thailand counselor when I was around 12 and she pretty much said the buy clomid thailand same thing and that I was making it harder on myself at school because I was “goth”. She also betrayed me by telling my parents everything I told her which just made family life that buy clomid thailand much harder.
I’ve been buy clomid thailand on more medicates than I can count since I was 11 but nothing seems to buy clomid thailand help really. I actually just got off some and withdrawal was hell for buy clomid thailand two weeks. Just going day by day now and trying.
I’m so lucky because I met my now husband when buy clomid thailand I was 13 and he saved my life. I was planning a buy clomid thailand way out and he just showed up, waltz in and stole my heart. I don’t know what I would have done without him. Well that’s not true, I would have buy clomid thailand been dead without his help and understanding. I’m blessed to have him in my life and have his love!
It’s a buy clomid thailand daily struggle for people that are depressed. We even make it buy clomid thailand hard on ourselves when we have those days where we feel like we shouldn’t be depressed. We are wired differently than other people, it’s not our fault and something that can’t be controlled, we can’t just switch a buy clomid thailand flip and say ok today I will not be depressed at all or buy clomid thailand wont be angry for all the pain. Really that just makes it buy clomid thailand more stressful. It’s a fight, it’s a buy clomid thailand battle and we have to put on armor and just do the buy clomid thailand best we can daily.
I can tell by reading your blog you’re a good mother. Mothers almost can’t have pride when it comes to their children unless it’s toward the children. You’re doing what buy clomid thailand YOU need to do for THEM and nothing is wrong with that!
OK I know I’ve rambled on and buy clomid thailand on but again sometimes I forgot that people get it, they understand and buy clomid thailand feel it.
Just remember you’re a buy clomid thailand good person, a good mom and take it day by day because in the buy clomid thailand end that’s all you can really do.
I hope tomorrow is buy clomid thailand better. I hope that you can find some joy in this buy clomid thailand holiday season and enjoy yourself and kids!
I can’t say I know how you buy clomid thailand feel, but I am proud of you for putting yourself out there. You may help many many women by your buy clomid thailand courage! I am praying for you and hope you will be feeling happier soon! Hugs!
You’re a buy clomid thailand strong person for handling your depression, I can only imagine what buy clomid thailand it’s like. Stay positive and know that you are a good person & good mother. *hugs*
I can’t relate to buy clomid thailand everything you have posted about- but I could not show weakness either, not since I was about 5 and buy clomid thailand my father’s family pretty much used any emotion against me. I still can’t cry or do “normal” relationships.
I’ve been buy clomid thailand depressed- the worst was when I lived in the dark in Alaska for buy clomid thailand months and months. It never got beyond twilight and buy clomid thailand I really felt like I was in a fog in the buy clomid thailand dark all the time.
Don’t be buy clomid thailand ashamed or embarrassed to get help whether emotional or medical or buy clomid thailand financial wherever you can- that’s what it is there for. People who are trying, doing the best they can. Most especially, don’t let anyone make you feel bad or less. No matter how it buy clomid thailand looks on the outside we ALL have our struggles to deal with and buy clomid thailand mountains to climb, some just show it differently.
A lot of this buy clomid thailand comes only from age and experience, but just the fact that buy clomid thailand you are trying makes you strong.
Oh and as for the ex- I messed up there too and I’ll say this- too late for buy clomid thailand me now and we have a deal worked out but every state will go after a buy clomid thailand deadbeat dad for you- every one. Especially one who is working. I tried to buy clomid thailand keep the peace and not make him look bad to his kids and buy clomid thailand everything but you know what- they knew anyways and while they get why I didn’t want to fight because we “managed” they kind of are a bit resentful they didn’t get what they were entitled to.
I just want to buy clomid thailand say, to the women out there trying to overcome these particular issues, that buy clomid thailand though you may feel that you are weak in some way or buy clomid thailand another because of how depressed you may feel now, understand that buy clomid thailand being in this mindset can be subsequently harmful if it causes you buy clomid thailand to hide your depression. This also will eventually persuade you to buy clomid thailand avoid getting the help you so disparately need to become the buy clomid thailand person you want to be for yourself and others. But firstly I want you buy clomid thailand ladies to realize that by coming here to voice your concern of your buy clomid thailand current situations took major guts and in knowing this you should celebrate even this buy clomid thailand most basic of achievements, because overcoming denial isn’t a easy task(trust me!). Even I sometimes forget to buy clomid thailand acknowledge this fact at times. Everyone has skeletons in their closet that buy clomid thailand must in time be released in order to regain some semblance of who buy clomid thailand they are and what they want out of life. “Rome wasn’t built in a buy clomid thailand day, so allow yourself to grow and experience life a day at a buy clomid thailand time!”
Depending on how severe the buy clomid thailand symptoms were I would have directed you toward going to doctor and buy clomid thailand having he/she prescribe some type of anti-depressant to buy clomid thailand suppress that particular mental disorders and, unfortunately the most common antidepressants have buy clomid thailand been linked to birth defects and miscarriage. Therefore, as a buy clomid thailand precaution I am advising women with these problems to first consult with your buy clomid thailand family about having a one on one discussion with a buy clomid thailand local certified therapist. There are also support groups for women like yourselves, either in the buy clomid thailand confines of your job or maybe in an facility that buy clomid thailand could provide a more discrete enclosure outside of the work grounds. Here is buy clomid thailand a helpline that will allow you to share any uncomfortable feelings that buy clomid thailand maybe bottled up, 1-800-808-0631 .“No matter what buy clomid thailand the gender or situation, know that everyone needs help every once in a buy clomid thailand while.”